Having a child is the most beautiful, surreal, challenging and sometimes heartbreaking time in your life. When I had my first child, it was the most surreal moment of my life. They put him, tiny, wet, shriveled little body on my belly and I remember feeling like, “this isn’t real, what is happening?” I had an out of body experience. We had thought all along he was a girl (we didn’t find out), let alone a real, live human being. To say that I didn’t take to motherhood well was a hushed, not-talked-about, secret I held. I had a romanticized vision of what motherhood would be like. It. was. not. that. [Read more…]