One year ago, we knew we had to do something for our son, who was 9 at the time. We had just started 4th grade and the anxiety and “self-hatred” attacks (as I call them) were getting out of control. The month leading up to 4th grade had seen the most melt downs and inconsolable debates that we had ever experienced. Nights where he would cry and tell us how stupid and ugly he was. He wished that he was dead. I couldn’t take it any more. I did what I always do….Google.
We started our Brain Balance journey back in August. Our son was having a really hard time adjusting to school and it was the culmination of years of trying different things to help him. We decided to enroll him in the program at Brain Balance.
I want to document this journey for others who may be going through similar situations. This is our introduction and first few weeks doing the program at home. I wrote in a previous post about our decision to start our son on the Brain Balance program. I am excited and hopeful to finally have some answers, but truth be told…I’m terrified.
Having a child is the most beautiful, surreal, challenging and sometimes heartbreaking time in your life. When I had my first child, it was the most surreal moment of my life. They put him, tiny, wet, shriveled little body on my belly and I remember feeling like, “this isn’t real, what is happening?” I had an out of body experience. We had thought all along he was a girl (we didn’t find out), let alone a real, live human being. To say that I didn’t take to motherhood well was a hushed, not-talked-about, secret I held. I had a romanticized vision of what motherhood would be like. It. was. not. that.